So much for that.
getting ditched for somebody else is always a thrilling feeling. or, if you're me, you not only get ditched for somebody else but your "date" doesn't bother showing up. I can't say this week has been the most enjoyable to my psyche. I guess you just assume you're more important to people than you really are. and the sad thing is that it's happened before, and I still didn't learn. no... I didn't learn and apparently this person didn't learn either. and i'm sorry if i'm not making much sense and i know i'm not utilizing proper capitalization but i'm feeling really sad and lazy right now.
God, it's only tuesday. and i'm so tired and i can't sleep. why is that? when you're the most tired sleep is the most elusive. i've fallen asleep in every single one of my classes every single day in the past 2 weeks. what the fuck am i supposed to do? if its not homework, its tutoring annoying kids. if its not tutoring, its yardwork. if its not that, its me sitting here typing out rambling things trying to repair the psychological damage i constantly inflict on myself. and its only tuesday. not only tuesday, but the tuesday after a long weekend. not that this weekend was particularly enjoyable, but still... i shouldn't be feeling this already, it usually takes until at least thursday. i hate school. i hate seeing those people and talking to people i don't like and pretending to be somebody i'm not. i hate watching my few friends slip away from me for newer and better things while i'm left in the dust watching them ride off into the sunset. I hate being the only one that fails the math tests because i'm asleep for most of the class. i hate the fact that i'm taking physics when there's no chance in hell that i'll ever use it. I hate the fact that i'm getting a poor grade in english, which is MY SUBJECT. I DON"T GET GRADES LIKE THIS IN ENGLISH, DAMMIT. and i hate the fact that i start yelling over everything.
I don't need no arms around me
I don't need no drugs to calm me
I have seen the writing on the wall
Don't think I need anything at all
All in all it was just bricks in the wall.
All in all you were just bricks in the wall.
God, it's only tuesday. and i'm so tired and i can't sleep. why is that? when you're the most tired sleep is the most elusive. i've fallen asleep in every single one of my classes every single day in the past 2 weeks. what the fuck am i supposed to do? if its not homework, its tutoring annoying kids. if its not tutoring, its yardwork. if its not that, its me sitting here typing out rambling things trying to repair the psychological damage i constantly inflict on myself. and its only tuesday. not only tuesday, but the tuesday after a long weekend. not that this weekend was particularly enjoyable, but still... i shouldn't be feeling this already, it usually takes until at least thursday. i hate school. i hate seeing those people and talking to people i don't like and pretending to be somebody i'm not. i hate watching my few friends slip away from me for newer and better things while i'm left in the dust watching them ride off into the sunset. I hate being the only one that fails the math tests because i'm asleep for most of the class. i hate the fact that i'm taking physics when there's no chance in hell that i'll ever use it. I hate the fact that i'm getting a poor grade in english, which is MY SUBJECT. I DON"T GET GRADES LIKE THIS IN ENGLISH, DAMMIT. and i hate the fact that i start yelling over everything.
I don't need no arms around me
I don't need no drugs to calm me
I have seen the writing on the wall
Don't think I need anything at all
All in all it was just bricks in the wall.
All in all you were just bricks in the wall.
posted by Aermethys at 12:50 PM
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